I tend to be very thorough...
When I write an essay, or a paper, I edit and proof as I go. Mostly because I don’t want to go over it again. That is why it takes so long for me to write anything.
Similarly, I do not do emotions by half. If I feel even a modicum of anger, or despair, I revert into a “hate mode.” I hate everything until it blows over. I hate myself, I hate everything I have ever done, I hate my aspirations, and I hate feeling content. That is why it takes so long for me to feel anything.
It is very discouraging.
